I choose not to go because:
- I have no sentimental feeling to go back to school. I only spend a couple of years there unlike other who had spent good old 5 years. Hence, I feel no attachment. Sure there were some good memories but I believe reunion can take place anywhere.
- It's a month near to the wedding and each and everyone has to pay RM 350. I rather save the money for something last minute wedding related.
- And the major reason is; most of my school mates are either married, married with babies or married and expecting. Although I am soon to be married, the feeling isn't the same. I'll be the few not-yet-married, single and lonely (human) being there. Of course I have my fiance but it's inappropriate to drag him all the way to Kedah to join the reunion. Besides, if I were to go, we're supposed to spend the night there as it is a 2 days event.
And besides, from what I heard none (OK, maybe few) of my high school clique is going. I don't want to chance the feeling of being awkward as I am not particularly close to any girls outside my circle of friends. Yes, I call it circle of friends because whenever I am outside of that perimeter, I'd turn into this shy, awkward, not so fun girl. Like an old car, I need time to warm up to people.
Don't we all?
My fiance said that I am (too) comfortable with the (few) friends that I have and encourages me to seek out new friends. Honestly, I am sort of person that will stick through thick and thin once I accepted someone into my life. I don't simple make friends with anyone just for the sake of you know, making friends? That's pretty much explain why currently I only have about 303 friends on my FB list. Itu pun lepas edit dan buang siapa-siapa yang tak berkenaan. Macam ala-ala pembersihan etnik gituh. Kejam, I know but I can't help it. I can't pretend to be friends to people that I am not really friends with. I am (too) honest, just like that.
And with these few friends that I have, I tried to occasionally keep in touch with them. We may not call, SMS or chat with each other everyday but we tried to whenever we have time. I know that with works and other commitments, things can get a little out of hand and friendship can stray. Carrie Bradshaw once said, to make friendship lasts we have to invest in friendship/emotional retirement plan. And I totally agree as friendship can't magically last forever. We have to gradually build it up to last.
So that's I organized a small get-together and iftar for my ALGians friends today (technically yesterday as today is already Sunday). I was glad that my friends shown up albeit your miss organizer here turn up a little bit late than expected. Favourite excuse of Malaysian #1 - blame it on heavy traffic jam. Which is partially true.
We talked, we w(h)ined and dined. We laughed and made silly jokes. We talked gibberish and yet everyone was so happy. At times, I was thinking if all of the joyful moment can repeat itself. How and what can we do to preserve it? Each of us will soon get married, have kids and grow older. We might get so soaked with our own life that we might forget about friends that we had and have. Then it occur to me that to just enjoy the as it is because:
Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the "present."
- Master Oogway [Kungfu Panda]
Don't you agree?