My head is throbbing and my eyes are sore. My shoulders feel heavy and my back hurts. I have been staring at the computer for the last 5 hours trying to settle the tasks that are not even mine. In fact, I have been neglecting my job for about a month and a half since she left. Yet, I was not appreciated. Yet, they questioned why everything is delayed.
Lately I have been depressed. My days of fun filled laughter and carefree are gone. Often I found myself sighing and questioning. There are times when I feel like quitting. But I do not have the courage. The work sucks but it pays. And that is the main issue.
I am still searching high and low for the desired one. I am aware that rezeki is in God's hand but at times, I couldn't help but feel defeated. Especially when it has been going on for years and still no luck.
I am constantly reminded about all the blessing surrounding me but like I said, I am human. When facing hard times, I couldn't help but to complaint and compare.
I am tired. I wish I could just curl under the duvet and weep.