I Had Hit The Rock Bottom

..or the lowest of low. Whatever you like to call it. Never had I feel so depressed, so helpless, so lost like this. Well, the last time I felt like this was 8 months ago. Right before I got the job offer from the current company.

I have exactly 3 weeks before I wander off streets aimlessly with sign "Will do anything for food/money" in my hand and join a group of people with rugged looks. Yes, I kid you not.

Life is hard when you are single and don't have a rich dad or husband. I wonder why some things are hard for me than they are to others. I work hard to get where I am today and I do believe that I deserve to at least get what I (really) wanted. Am I asking too much? I don't think so.

I want to think or believe that things eventually will come around and get its way but for now, I am too depressed and hopeless to have the energy to even believe.

Please pray for me dear readers, if you care. Now, if you excuse me I want to weep and cry (silently)


reena said...

I know how u feel. Hang in there ok.

dedalie said...

hey moose keep your head up high. things will turn around. at least i'd like to think it would. many cheers. hope 2010 is a better year for us. don't give up to improve things.

(ucapan dari orang di dalam 'bot yang sama'. probably more meaningful than others)

Moose said...

reena: thanks a lot, here and in twitter.
dedalie: yeah, hopefully 2010 is a better year for both of us. good luck to you too. kita in the same boat, harap2 boat tak karam. matilah dua-dua obese. hiks.