Body Talk

So yesterday was Valentine's Day. Not that we were celebrating it or anything but 3 years ago, we were engaged on the day and suddenly I was feeling nostalgic when looking back at all our engagement photos and reminiscing the good time (and how skinny I was back then!). I think I weighed about 50+ kg kot masa tu. I just joined the gym and man, I was loving my body. Not bonny skinny but toned skinny.

Now sure if you get the drift but for short, my body was hot la. HAHAHA. Perasan.

Don't hate me. Peace no war. HAHA

Yes, it WAS. Now I feel like a blob. Sad.

I still look skinny and I already got my pre-pregnancy weight back but really, for someone who just gained 6-7 kg during the pregnancy, it wasn't that hard. I lost all the pregnancy weight 1 month into confinement and I wasn't doing anything particular. I eat like nobody's business and hungry all the time because I'm breastfeeding. I even jokingly told my husband that I eat more now than when I was pregnant. It's the truth, really. No kidding there. Breastfeeding moms can attest to this.

I would love to start exercising again to tone the body but it's winter (alasan!) so I can't jog. Besides, Aqil is fully on the breasts so I can't leave him with anyone since we don't bottle-trained him because of personal reasons (will blog more about this but I don't know when). The only exercise that I'm doing is walking and if you live without your own transportation, you are bound to do it, a lot. And it's free, so yay!

Hopefully once the weather is a bit warmer, we or I can go to parks for a walk. It's nicer to go to parks when it's not freezing cold and the ground is not laced with snow and ice. And I don't have to frantically look for cafe/deli/restaurant if Aqil suddenly wakes up for milk because I can nurse him there and then. Oslo is practically a breastfeeding friendly place so you won't get stared at if you are NiP. So, another yay!

Tell me - how do you mommies, lose the pregnancy weight?

I Am...

Vigelandsparken

pretty much alive and kicking! Haha.

But sorry for the lack of updates though. Nothing interesting happened lately and everything seems so......... mundane.

The weather is getting warmer and warmer everyday as spring is approaching. Yesterday, a couple of H's colleagues' wives (I called them the members of Oslo's wives' club. Hehe) and I arranged for a get together and met up with a Singaporean lady that we knew over Facebook. Does it amaze you just how fantastic online social network is? Not only it connects friends (and foes!) but it also brings strangers together.

We went to United Bakeries, a trendy yet cosy bakery at Oslo city center. It was a new experience for me as it was my first time hanging out with mothers and their babies, outside. I know it's shocking but I never hang out with my friends and their kid(s) outside. Whenever I see them it's either at their house or ours. Whenever we went lepaking, we usually hang-out with H's guy friends and they're mostly unmarried. So being surrounded by a toddler and 2 babies while hanging out is new to me.

Wait, now I know why I lack motherly instinct, I don't surround myself with babies (and their mothers) enough. Lol.

I have to admit that I am not good with kids. I cringe and annoyed whenever a kid misbehaves. That's how terrible (and impatient) I am. But A's (the Singaporean lady) kids are so well-behaved. Her 20-months toddler even wants to sit on my lap! Well, that's a first. Haha. Smiling and giggling at all the goofy stuffs I did to him. Such a charmer, he is. Her 5-months baby, apart from being the biggest 5-months baby I've ever seen, is such a happy baby, all cute and adorable with his gummy smiles.

We then talked about everything under the skies. From living in Norway to our health concerns. From their pregnancy and birth experiences to places to visit during summer. Towards the end of our meeting, I can conclude that I was never this happy while being surrounded by kids.

Does that mean that I'm ready to have one on my own?

Letter to the Immortal Beloved

Be calm - love me -
today - yesterday -
what tearful longings for
you - you - you
my life - my all - farewell.
Oh continue to love me -
never misjudge
the most faithful heart
of your beloved.
Ever thine.
ever mine.
ever ours.

Ludwig Van Beethoven

Ever thine, ever mine, ever ours.

Praise to God, we are one.

Cheat The Heart

After some time, it's getting harder to cheat the heart. The old trick of burying deep into workloads I guess, no longer works for me. It's getting stale and my heart knows it. Hence explain why I am writing this when I was supposed to finish off the work that I brought home.

Call me a cry baby, call me for being such a weakling and softy, for this woman just caught herself crying while listening to Christina Perri's latest single - A Thousand Years. It's undeniable that this woman misses her husband yet she's blaming it on PMS. Which is partly true, in a way.

And it's not helping that we're 2 weeks away from celebrating our first wedding anniversary. But, from the way I see it, it's 100% confirmed that we're celebrating it - 10,000 km apart.

I have loved you for a thousand years, I'll love you for a thousand more.

- Christina Perri [A Thousand Years]

Hamburg, 2007

On Good Old Days

This photo of me and my brother was taken when I was about 6 years old and my brother was 1. Our family was on vacation trip via the glorious Ferry Malaysia, about 1 year before it was caught on fire and the company that was managing it was declared bankrupt.

I didn't have clear memories of the time but I did remember how my fingers were painfully trapped by the bathroom door, running and playing around with my brother - he was such a doll, soaked myself in the swimming pool until my fingers were pruney and in the middle of it, my swimming ring ran out of air and scared the shit out of my mother because I was swimming in an adult pool when I can barely know how to, at that time.

LOL

Oh, how I miss the good old days.

On Being Apart

My friends were not kidding when they told me that long-distance relationship/marriage is hard. Almost 2 months into one, I have to admit the truth in their fore-warning. All I can say is that,

LDR/M is not for the faint-hearted.

If you're a clingy person, whose world would stop without the sight of your other-half, I'd suggest you save the trouble because mid-way you might lose yourself. I was lucky because I was brought up by my parents to be independent. In addition to the upbringing, 5 years abroad had taught me to or rather forced me into being able to stand on my own feet and to maneuver my life and not to be dependent on others, too much.

I won't give tips on how to survive LDM because I am still new to it besides, different person has different perspective and ways how to handle their situation. The first few weeks was easy for me because I was so busy with work, so I immersed myself deeply in work so that H's lack of presence will not be sorely missed. After the work load subsides, only then I realized that this is a no-joke situation.

I miss coming home after work with the thought of preparing scrumptious (and of course, healthy) dinner for him. I miss the weekends where I suddenly was motivated to bake, to show him off with my (beginner) culinary skills. I miss the silly jokes, the weekly movie date, the late night Friday hang outs with our friends and to summarize it all, the time we spent together.

(banyak oi kot nak tulis satu-satu buat apa dengan laki sendiri)

To say that I don't miss him is a total lie. To say that I miss him, is an understatement.

Seven Days

On the day that my dear husband is leaving, I read the post that was beautifully written by this lady. Reading through the words, I feel like having a deja vu because there they were - words by words, the thought that has been boggling in my mind for at least 2 months. It's like all these while, she has been reading my mind and pour its content in a way that I cannot seem be able to express.

Yes, I think by now you can already gauge and guess based on this entry and this. We are now in a (temporary) long-distance relationship (LDR).

It's funny when you think about it cos my husband particularly was never a fan of such LDR. Neither do I. Or the rest of the LDR couples. It's not a choice by any chance.

Now it's a different situation. My husband recently was offered a new job which required him to undergo training & relocate to a place 10,000 km away from home for nearly 2 years. And it's not conveniently within reachable distance. I have no qualm about the job offer. I know that it's something that he wanna do since the beginning so I'm totally happy for him.

It has been a week. I am still trying to adjust the fact that I need to be on my own 2 feet again. Not that I haven't been but you know, marriage somehow takes the independent side of you, a bit. So, here I am managing my household alone. Meaning, I have to do all the housework alone and it's not fun! There's gonna be no Cinderella. Sobs.

Maybe I'll follow soon or maybe I won't. This situation will be hard but I believe in Allah, for He knows what is the best for us. And in the mean time, we'll work something that's best for us. Insya Allah.

Dream A Little Dream Of Me

I had a dream last night. It was so brief yet so vivid. In the dream, I was strolling along a park. A familiar park but somehow I couldn't make up where it was. I could hear the sounds of birds chirping in the distant, the smell of roses in the air and the coldness of wet grass brushing on my feet.

I was walking hand in hand with my husband. He smiled with the sweetest smile and brushed my hair off my face. As he was leaning to kiss me, I woke up and saw his side of the bed is empty. I panicked only then I remember that my soulmate is at a place 10,000 km away from me.

I sobbed softly, longing for his warmth touch.


Sayang, I miss you.

Raya Snippet

• This year is husband's turn. We went to celebrate Eid in Klang and Malacca.
• Being away for 5 years/raya has toughen me up. Which means, no tears from me for not be able to beraya with my (own) family in KCH. That, or I am just some cold-hearted bitch. HAHA.
• I didn't pull any Wan Maimunah or Fauziah Nawi's. So.Not.My.Scene.
• My baju raya got bling! Though it's very minimal, it's the closest I get wearing something beaded.
• Husband's family loves cam-whoring, a lot! My lips are getting tired of smiling.
• Though I am gonna be broke (this month), giving out duit raya to siblings, nieces & nephews are essential and actually a fun thing to do.
• Husband and I managed to spread and implanted the infectious Smurf's theme song in a mind of a 3 year old.
• Husband's cousins' little daughters and sons are cute as a doll and fun to play with.
• Apparently, I got tired of raya dishes too early. I resorted to nasi putih, sambal udang & masak lemak on the second raya after looking somewhat haggared.
• Ironically, now I am salivating for Atuk's rendang & kari ayam. Slurp.



Exhausted face sans make-up





Mom-zilla. Dan Tidak, Mak Saya Bukan Bernama Zilla

Dalam boring dan malas aku nak buat persiapan kahwin, aku buat jugak semua tu sebab mommy dearest sudah jadi Mom-zilla. Eh, jangan tak tau. Syndrome -zilla ni bukan setakat Bride-zilla or Dad-zilla (tu tanya Nawal, dia lagi terer dengan symptoms dad-zilla) je yang ade, Mom-zilla pun ade ok.

With the long weekend that we had last week, I managed to settle few things as per Mom-zilla's instruction. I missed out iftar session with the SS girls and I was actually looking forward to meet them last weekend but unfortunately since I'm gonna be on leave 3 days early than the rest of the staff in the Company, I had to forgo taking leave on Monday, today. And here I am sitting in an office with almost no one around. Which equal to no urgent work and hence, yours truly can sit down and blog peacefully.

I managed to meet 3 potential decorators for pelamin. 1 is in Jitra and another 2 are local talents from Perlis. Thanks to E'eda for reading this blog and hooked me up with their contacts or else I wouldn't know. Honestly, pelamin was the last thing on my mind. I had no preferance over which design that I fancied. Like nothing. Yang aku tau I prefer fresh flowers over artificial as they add that exclusive and elegant looks to the pelamin. Dan aku nak single chair. Boleh duduk rapat-rapat sambil beramas mesra dengan laki. Ehem. Lepas tu nak simple tapi cantik. Boleh?

The decorator that I choose was the one that is able to meet up with my budget. Yang lain-lain tu tak mampu akak uols walaupun tambah 2-3 ratus je dari budget aku tapi when you are on tight budget you can't afford to let loose anymore. Dahla banyak je benda sudah lebih budget. It's annoying to talk constantly about budget but what can I do? When you pay everything on your own for your own wedding, then you'll know what I'm talking about. If your parents finance your wedding then you should be thankful and happy and not be a bridezilla. It's just ungrateful.

Mom decided to let the decorator do the bedroom as well in addition to pelamin. Yours truly here wanted to decorate her room herself. I may not be an interior designer but I have my own touch if I focus on it. (Ayat poyo gile) Lucky my mom willing to pay the extra. Nawal, kali ni taktik takde budget ko berkesan. Selalunya mak aku suruh carik option lain je. Ngeeee.

Another item checked off the list. Pheeewwww.

How cute is your mom when she worries over MUA? I had banked in the deposit and secure the date with Kak Ram last week and mom still worry about it. Her questions are always,

• Did Kak Ram knows our house?


• What if he can't find it?


• Make sure he'll be here early. Go and SMS him now.


• What if the make-up turns to be ugly. Eh, you should do make-up trial with him. Got no money? Use my money first then pay later. (Ingat kot nak sponsor..... (-_-) )

Aiyooo mama, like who's getting married here again?


Yang paling comel when your parents talked about their fantasy for their kid's wedding.

• Kita ambik budak kompang. Meriah sikit. (Aku pun tanak berkompang segala)


• Nanti bila nak buat makan nasi temuan? Malam ke siang lepas kenduri?
  
  This shockingly comes from my dad. For those who don't know, nasi temuan ni adat orang Sarawak (mom is Sarawakian, dad is Perlisian) yang dimana, nasi diletakkan bawah tudung saji kemudian ade sorang akan in-charge untuk buka tudung saji tu and the bride and groom akan berebut amik nasik tu dan suap nasi tu ke mulut our better half. I don't know what's the significant behind this practice tapi it's fun to watch bride and groom berebut suap nasi. But it's no longer fun when you're the one that's supposed to do it. HAHA. Any Sarawakian care to enlighten me on this adat?

I am glad and happy for the fact I am blessed with my parents being so liberal, practical and open-minded. Takdelah nak paksa aku buat benda yang aku tak suka. I'm not having any bunga pahar because my parents think that merenjis is so unnecessary. But we gonna have it anyway (albeit a short one) for the sake of other relative yang teringin sangat nak merenjis. They also give me the freedom and let me to take charge of everything. Pasal catering and canopy segala tu je kot yang diorang handle. And oh, AV system jugak. Hmm, tu je kot. But I do occasionally ask their opinion. Takdelah ikut aku je. Macam mom was so not keen on gantung-gantung gambar dekat porch tu. Macam orang cina mati katanya. APAKAH?? It's in trend now ok, mama. I tried explaining that to her with proof from Snippet & Ink, Style Me Pretty segala but to no avail. Guess, she's firm and stubborn like me as well. Hmm. Apa boleh buat, like mother like daughter gitu.

Ya Allah, ticker tu cakap lagi 117 days? Baru je aku tengok haritu lagi 130 days. Lagi 17 Jumaat je kot. *Pengsan*

Nawal, ko berapa Jumaat lagi? Yaya? Lynda? HAHA

16 Random Facts

Hallo readers! I'm terribly sorry for not updating the blog as frequently as possible. Blame it on the fact that I have nothing (interesting) to blog about. But now, jeng jeng finally I have something (although not really interesting) to share. This time I've been tagged by the lovely Reena

Directions: Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a blog with 16 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose 16 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave them a comment or tag them in your note to read this.

Geez, this is so hard.. *thinking*

1. Until now, I (still) don't know how to apply an eyeshadow (perfectly). Well, you see I have this weird shape of eyelids that I can't or don't know how to explain it. The easiest way is to opt out the eyeshadow. Easy peasy.
2. H (the boyfriend) and I have known each other for, let's see, 7 years. But we broke up (like, a couple of times) and patched up our differences and happy to announce that we're pretty much (more) happy this time around. Insya Allah.
   
   
   
3. I can't use any of Clinique Skincare. They made my skin break out, so terrible that I had to consult a skin doctor.
   
4. I never had any (major) break out before not even during puberty, but thanks to Clinique, my face used to be a field filled with zits.
5. I swear by Olay Total Effects Moisturizer. I have a dry skin, if not very and it really moisturizes my skin effectively, hence I guess the name. (this however is not an advertorial)
6. I only obtained my driving license at the age of 24. And my baby sister said, I drive her crazy, or at least like crazy. Something which I (totally) don't agree.
7. Truthfully I don't really care about brand. I believe with the right amount of attitude and sense of style, a RM 5 t-shirt can look like a million bucks. But I do like LV Neverfull and Chanel 2.55 ('s design). Camno?
8. I love Hainan Chicken Rice!
   
   
   
9. Places that I would love to visit someday are Spain, Portugal, New York, Florence (again!), Bali,... and the list is endless!
10. I am an avid kebaya nyonya lover!
11. I also love the traditional Malay accessory- dokoh. Can anyone tell me where I can find/buy dokoh?
    
    
    
12. I am so happy for my dear good friend, A who has given birth to a lovely baby girl. Congrats! It's amazing and I am lucky to have known you since we're 18 until now.
    
13. I'm a straight forward kinda person. I speak my mind, (almost) all the time. If you asked my opinion about let's say a particular shirt that you like but it looks absolutely hideous and horrendous, I'm not gonna sugarcoated my words, esp. when you're someone that I care about.
14. One of my bad habits is that I love to talk back (in Malay menjawab). It can't be help as I enjoy verbal sparring. Or maybe I'm a nature born lawyer? - Sila muntah, di luar. (Ok, I geddit, janganlah perasan) Hihi.
    
15. I wish that I am rich(er).
    
16. Being introduced to Paulo Coelho by a random blogger who blogs about his then-latest book; Brida, I think I'm hooked on Coelho. So far I've read three of his famous books; The Pilgrimage, The Alchemist and Like The Flowing River. I (still) can't wait to get my hands on his other books particularly Maktub, Brida and The Zahir.

And the person I wanna tag are:

• My baby sister
• And since I can't come up with anyone else's blog, whomever read this post, (s)he is obliged to do this tag too. Haa!
  

Sepuluh. Ten. Zehn

10 Schools you've attended.

1. Tadika Perpaduan
2. SK Jalan Ong Tiang Swee
3. SK Kg. Batu
4. SK Dato' Kayaman
5. SMK Dato Sheikh Ahmad
6. SMSAH
7. KM Kuala Pilah
8. INTEC
9. HS Albstadt-Sigmaringen
10. Sekolah Memandu, aci?


10 of your Favourite Books.

1. The Kite Runner, Khaled Hosseini
2. The Malay Dilemma, Tun Dr. Mahathir Mohamad
3. The Pilgrimage, Paulo Coelho
4. Like The Flowing River, Paulo Coelho
5. The Surgeon, Tess Gerritsen
6. Can You Keep A Secret, Sophie Kinsella
7. A Thousand Splendid Sun, Khaled Hosseini
7. Everyone Worth Knowing, Lauren Weisberger
8. Sidney Sheldon's
9. Ransom, Danielle Steel
10. Jemima J, Jane Green


10. of your favourite Musics/Bands.

1. Spice Girls
2. Jason Mraz
3. Yuna
4. Koko Kaina, check out her YouTube's Channel here
5. Incubus
6.The Vines
7. No Doubt
8. Daughtry
9. Cranberries
10.Radiohead


10 of your favourite Movies.

1. LOTR Trilogy
2. Resident Evil 1
3. The Notebook
4. Finding Nemo
5. Infernal Affairs 1,2,3
6. Training Days
7. The Eye (Chinese Version)
8. The Departed, Leo DiCaprio's character's vulnerability is too freaking sexy to resist!
9. Shutter (Thai version)
10. Too many. Impossible to choose


10 of your favourite boybands.

Huh?? Haha.


10 of your favourite animals.

1. Hamster
2. Sheep
3. Cat
4. Dolphin
5. Crocodile
6. Butterflies
7. Orang Utan
8. Guinea Pig
9. Dog
10. Rabbit

10 things you call 'sweet'.

1. When my parents rotfl at my retarded jokes.
2. When H calling me sayang.
3. Watching old couples holding hands. It makes the most cynical person in the world even believe that love does exist.
4. To be able to spend times with the ones that I care and love.
5. When H and I able to talk about our future without literally killing each other.
6. To be praised.
7. Watching movies with friends.
8. When your parents are proud of you.
9. A sudden hug from the people i care.
10. Hands that will never let go.

Confession of A Teenager Drama Queen Shopaholic

I have confession to make...



*deep breath*







so here it goes....






(scroll, scroll)







Hi, my name is Moose (*wave* *wave*) and I'm shamely admit that I'm no longer a shopaholic!




(Gasp!)




It's been forever that I bought anything (ok, exaggerate) and the day I got together with my then boyfriend turn ex-boyfriend turn boyfriend (bape kali break-up? jangan tanya) I've limited myself from any (impulse) shopping! I don't know if this is good (sign) or not, but I don't think this blog deserves the name The Shopaholic Diaries anymore. Maybe I should change it to,
The (No Longer) Shopaholic Diaries?

p/s: the blog also had become more and more a personal blog than I initially thought.

Of Love For Books

I cried like a baby on a plane 2 years ago when reading the beautiful piece by Khaled Hosseini; The Kite Runner and had recommended to every single soul I know to read the book that moved me into tears. A few months ago my boyfriend who was still in love with Hosseini's debut book, bought A Thousand Splendid Suns.






I had to wait a little longer than I imagined for my turn to read the book as I had already exceed my monthly budget, for I had bougt 3 Paulo Coelho books few weeks earlier. If you think his first book is good, the second is...










even better! I don't even recall at which chapter did my eyes got teary. Maybe (just) after few pages turn.

Forget about your handbag wish list for a while. This definately is a must-read book.

I just bought 2 books yesterday, one is Eric Schlosser's Fast Food Nation (old book, I know) and second is The Best Of Roald Dahl by Roald Dahl. I'm currently reading the Fast Food Nation first for I'm saving the Dahl's book to be read later in Malaysia. (Another reason being, my boyfriend wants to read the FFN too, but too stingy to buy for himself, tula sape suruh beli buku Jimmy Carter's Palestine Peace not Apartheid tu)

Growing up I can say that I'm a bookworm. My weekend was a routine of going to swimming class on Saturday and if class was cancelled, you can find me burying my nose in a good old Enid Blyton's. How much I love all her short stories esp. this one story about a girl who loves to draw on anything, walls, doors etc. etc. even though her mom never fails to probate her from doing so. Then one day she woke up and found out that she had become like one of her own drawing, and the people started to draw on her like she used to and finally she realized that it's not nice to draw anywhere else other than on paper. Like, how berkesan is this story if you read it to your child(ren)? Which explains why none of us (my siblings and I) don't doodle or scribble on wall. Except that my adik-adik love to conteng on my (story)books!

Famous Five and The Secret Seven was also my muses back then although I only read the Malay translated version, oh as well as Nancy Drew (Malay:Siri Salma) and Hardy Boys (Malay:Siri Anak-Anak Encik Hadi). <-- Laugh all you want but that's the translation. I still have the book in my parents' home to prove I'm not kidding.

Oh yes, detective stories intrigued me, way before CSIs. When all kids that I know back at the library read their doses of Sweet Valley Series, I'd be happy if I'd be able to read Enid Blyton's. I guess drama doesn't interest me much, no? I guess one of the reason I read lots of Blyton's books was probably my mom was a fan of her, so it's natural if she (over)exposed her work to me. Come to think about it I love blue (the colour, not the movie, doink!) all thanks to her! Geez mom, no wonder I don't wear pink (now) or had any pink dress during my childhood.

Luckily, I cannot tahan when reading one of Barbara Cartland's (her fav. author) romance y'all, geli-geleman bace, tak bleh blah.

A Serie Of Unfortunate Event

I thought I forgot to bring along my USB stick to work today, resulting in me rushing back home merely after I arrived at work. And as I fearly thought, I lost it, the USB stick that contained my WHOLE life in it. My project report of 40++ pages and 5 months of work, gone. My Studienarbeit, Hausarbeit gone gone gone. The most interesting part is that, I don't do back up!

Vavi..

Have a nice Thursday all..

**Update**

Yay! I found it, the USB Stick. Guess where? In a bath tub, boleh? It must've slipped from my handbag. Thank God!

Hey You, Hey You, I Wanna Be Your Girlfriend

My boyfriend is not exactly your typical boyfriend, meaning he is romance-intolerant, which I found rather disturbing at the beginning of our relationship. But it's true what they said, it takes time to really know a person because after 6 years of knowing him, he's romantic too but not in a traditional kinda way. He seldom showered me with (expensive) gifts, let alone flowers because to him, that is so cliché, which I sometimes agreed, although he knows how much I like flowers. The only time I would be receiving gift from him was during my birthday and for this year, I received something that most people didn't expect..an internal harddisk! Exactly! how un-romantic is that?

Schatz, not that I'm complaining.. :) I really need that anyway..

Now that you know a little bit about him, imagine my surprise when he gave me some money as a farewell gift?Well, actually he did asked me beforehand what I wanted, to which I replied he might need to rephrase that again, as truth to be told I don't think he can handle my getting-longer wishlist at the moment. Which explains why he gave the money instead.

So, now I'm thinking hard about what to do with it? And please bear in mind that it's not enough for me to run to the nearest Louis Vuitton store. I might as well use it to pay my heating bill, boleh?

More Excuses For Not Updating (Teil Eins)

Living in a foreign country is a hard thing, but when your better half is going back to Malaysia for good and leaving you behind, it makes thing even harder. Yes, my boyfriend is officially an engineer and is now, I believe happily gorging every single edible food found in Malaysia while I'm still here, cramming every poor braincells of mine, doing my final project which I honestly don't know when gonna end. So if the blog lacks update, you know why.

I can't blog about what outfit-I-wore today as I purposely don't dress up to work, mainly because:

• my co-workers don't dress up and I don't feel like being judge for being "overly" dressed to work.
• I valued every minute of my sleep in the morning, which I guess explains it all.
  

I am too stressed out about the whole project that sometimes I don't bother about trivial stuff like do my shoes match with my handbag, or is that stain I spotted on my jeans? Hmm..

So there, are all my excuses. I'll keep y'all updated whenever I have time or had found another excuse.

Update

Two weeks had passed since the dinner thingy that I previously mentioned. I'm meaning to update the blog as frequently as possible but with the amount of works and stress I'm having it's kinda impossible. Excuses, excuses I know but I'm terribly sorry. Well it's not like I have frequent readers anyway, not that I mind actually.

So about the dinner, it was actually nice albeit we're sweating heavily with our up-do outfits and it's almost 30°C outside, with no air-conditioner available in the restaurant. Yeah, not a pleasant condition, I must say. All of us had a great time, I guess, catching up and updating each other with our current life. It's certainly nice seeing familiar now matured faces and that time indeed flies fast.

Ok enough about the sweet memories. Let's talk about the outfit that I wore that night. Ah yes, it was exactly as I described before, no changes have been made because truthfully, I didn't even have time to rethink about another new outfit! After the seminar, we only had only the whole 20 minutes to shower, get change and in my case, get the face done. All of this in fricking 20 minutes! I managed to do all of it in half an hour, which made me 10 minutes behind. Ah well, it's fashionable to be fashionably late.

So I'm gonna put up the pics after I finished editing them. It's so typical of me that I totally forgot to snap the outfit but I think there's a good chance that a picture of me and my boyfriend had a full frontal view of it. If not, well maybe I'll have to get dressed exactly like 2 weeks ago and ask my boyfriend to snap it for me since he'll be coming to visit me tomorrow. Oh I can't wait! This long distant relationship is sometimes so refreshing that I always have butterflies in my stomach and get über-excited whenever he's around. I guess I better stop now before I make some of you sick!

Update:


On me:

Scarf: Tie Rack
Blazer: H&M
Dress: H&M
Belt: H&M
Pants: no name
Heels: H&M

On boyfriend:

Shirt: Zara
Pants: - Shoes: ZaraI jokingly told my friend that for that particularly event H&M sponsored me the outfit! Go figure.


Sorry for the pixelated pic, I'm still uncomfortable exposing myself.

First of all

.. I'm terribly sorry for neglecting my blog for so long. It's just that I've been busy lately. However I'm really grateful that after searching for an apprentice place for so long and went to listless interviews, I managed to score a place. And now, I had a huge headache finding a room/apartment in such a short time! I should have not said that I will begin as soon as possible if I'd know that finding a decent place can be this tiring! Oh well, promises had been made.

Apropos promise yes, I know that I promised all of you the pictures but I've to apologize one more time as I still don't have the pictures.

My friends, my boyfriend and I went to Istanbul the other day during Easter for 2 days, and we had so much fun and I got to see my boyfriend! I haven't seen him for about a month since he moved to the new place. As much as I would love to post the pictures here but I'm afraid I'm gonna pass. I'm still don't comfortable disclosing my identity. OK, maybe a couple of pics where no full frontal image of me in it, deal?

The entrance to Grand Bazaar

This is where we got so overwhelmed and spend most of our money

The famous Blue Mosque or Sultan Ahmet Mosque

Yeah, that's me alright, acting all crazy and goofy on the streets of Istanbul

The headscarf that I'm wearing is actually bought at the Grand Bazaar for 6 Lira which is about RM12? It's pretty cheap here in Istanbul, the key is to haggle most of the items to half of its price. The other thing is being Muslim and comes from Malaysia. Seriously it's like the word Malaysia had been plastered all over our forehead or something. It's like everywhere we went, we're stopped by people asking do we come from Malaysia or Indonesia but they always suspected the former. Now enough of Istanbul and its lovely cheap scarves, or its coloured hand-painted porcelain wares..and no-fuss-halal-food-is-everywhere...

Last weekend I went to the flea market in my town. When it's raining and cold, it surely can kill your mood to freely browse through all the items. I saw a couple of beautiful vintage shoes but sadly none of them are in my size. I almost bought a sheer black blouse that is 200 times larger that my size (yeah, I'm exaggerating here) because I'm in love with its high frilly Victorian neck but quickly come to my senses. And also I hate the seller who won't reduce the price of his very vintage and hand-painted gold Swiss-made pocket watch cum pendant. I'm not a big fan of accessories but that one really caught my eyes. Other than that I love the lady who's freezing because of the cold weather and sold me a lovely 50's/60's leather handbag for only 2Euro without hesitation.

Dear lady, I love you so much that I even mention you on my blog! You rock my world! Yeah!

Vintage handbag: thrifted 2€

Well, quite a lengthy post huh? I thought it should cover up all the posts I've been meaning to write but don't.

Wish List

at the moment,

1. Miu Miu White Tote


2. Jimmy Choo Shoe(s)-for the record, I tried a Choo's once, and oh I couldn't even described the feeling, as I slipped my feet into 'em, it's like an outer body experience.


3. This black peep toe as seen at mytheresa.de


4. Steven Strait


5. Cupcakes