Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

Dear Readers,


SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK!!

Semoga Ramadhan kali ini memberi seribu makna dan pengertian kepada kita semua. Dan semoga ibadah dan amalan kita pada bulan Ramadhan tahun ini lebih baik dari tahun-tahun sebelumnya.

Insya Allah.

(gaya ustazah bagi tazkirah)

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Personally, I think in order to be a better Muslim, the absolute obstacle that you have to overcome does not come from Satan but it comes from you.

Yes, you.

Or at least in my case.

For years especially during Ramadhan, I secretly vowed that my Ramadhan and ibadah during that particular year would be better than previous. And every single day, I'd pray that I become a better Muslim. A Muslim that take care of her aurat, her ibadah and think of Allah in every single thing that she does. In other words, the kind of Muslim that Allah expects us to be.

Taking care of aurat is the biggest challenge for me. Or I believe so. I love swimming. I tried covering up when I swam but the feeling isn't the same. The extra cloth that clings to my body feels like a burden. Gosh, I sound like I'm making up excuses. See, didn't I tell you?

Terasa agak ironic bila Malaysia yang so-called Muslim country tidak mempunyai kolam renang khas untuk wanita atau hari-hari yang dikhaskan untuk wanita. Sedangkan Germany ada mengkhaskan 1 hari untuk wanita di kolam renang mereka. Maybe not all but it's available at their major cities. I know because I made some calls. Unfortunately it was 2 hours train journey from where I lived.

I love dressing up or sometimes down. There are times where I succumb to the inner devil by not covering properly. You know, 3-quarter sleeved shirt paired with skinny jeans? Tapi bertudung selendang. Kadang-kadang terasa malu dengan diri sendiri sebab tidak (mampu) menutup dan menjaga aurat dengan sempurna. Tapi masih tidak mampu berbuat demikian (i.e. menutup aurat dengan sempurna) kerana masih suka ber-skinny jeans. Sebab perasan kaki kurus dan panjang. Heh.

I know that there will be times for me to finally take care of my aurat. And I pray hard for the time to come. I even said to my fiance that I need his support when the time comes. I don't know about you but I find that women in black abaya or jubah are sexy (in their own way) and mysterious. And so pretty, masya Allah. Betul, tak tipu.

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From The Sartorialist